Religion

Well today sucked. I haven't been feeling well today. I don't know any mom does it, taking care of her children when she is sick. I got to feeling better as the day went on, but I really don't know how I would have made it through the day if I had been really sick (like I thought I was going to be).

I can't wait for Easter. We're going back to Wichita to be with my family for Easter. I can't wait. Easter has always been one of my favorite holidays. I don't like it for the bunnies and candy , but I love it for the religious aspects of the holiday. I love Holy Week! It is such a wonderful inspiration of faith and reminder of how we should be living our lives everyday. I once heard a quote and I don't remember where it was from but it said, "Do you believe that had you been the only person on earth that Jesus still would have died just for you?" I had never really thought about it like that before, but I really think he would have done that. I don't think that I would deserve that kind of treatment. I wish I could say that I lived my life so that I deserved to be saved by Jesus should I be the only person on earth. I am reminded of this every year and I try to live my life a little better every year so I don't feel so guilty the next year. It is occurring to me as I write this that this year that it is no longer just my eternal well being that is in my hands, but also the well being of my sons. I have thought that I have some responsibility for Corey's eternal life since we met, but at the same time I have always figured well he's an adult and it's his business were he ends up for eternity. But at the same time being joined as one in marriage means that we are both responsible for each other. Corey was never raised in a very Catholic home. He never really learned anything religious where as I had 13 years of Catholic eduction and I have been no better at living a good Catholic lifestyle than he has. Is it wrong for me to only be waiting to be a better Catholic because of my children? I know that being a good Catholic and having a good Catholic role model is very important for my children and maybe God knew that is what it would take for me to come back to the Church. Anyway, enough religious rambling for now.

There's always room for jello

Happy St. Patty's Day! We had my favorite thing in the whole wide world for dinner tonight...lime jello with pears. I gave the boys a little bit to eat/play with. Andy tried it and seemed to like it, but then he spit it all back out (in the form of a raspberry). Matt would not try it at all. I just put put some on his highchair and he touched it then shot me this look that could only say, "what the heck is this stuff?" It was so cute. Andy didn't really play with it but every time he'd try and pick it up to eat it the jello just fell through his fingers and confused him.

I can't believe how many new foods the boys are eating now. They had graham crackers for the first time tonight. They love cheese and yogurt. They eat a lot of crackers, cheerios, and the Gerber puffs. I gave them a couple of bites of my blueberry waffle this morning which they seemed to like. I have to be careful what all I give them because Matt only has two teeth and can't chew a lot of things, but Andy can chew more because he has 5 teeth. I don't really want to give Andy new foods and not Matt so I am taking it slow. I know they are only 9 months old so they shouldn't really be eating a ton of table food, but the more table food I can give them the less I have to spend on baby food. I've tried the whole making my own baby food and have decided I should just give up. It really isn't all that hard or anything, but the boys just don't eat it that well. Maybe I just don't puree it enough or something, but it doesn't doesn't work out like I think it should in the end. Oh well only a couple more months of mostly baby food and then it will be just a little baby food and mostly table food.

Life is funny sometimes

Life is crazy. One day it seems to be going sooooo fast and the next day life is dragging on forever. I started thinking about the boys turning one in two and a half months. I was thinking about what kind of birthday party we're going to have for them. I started to realize that they are almost one and it seems like only yesterday that we brought them home from the hospital. I can't believe how big they are getting. Now, today the day won't end. It's Friday and I want so bad for Corey to get home and our weekend as a family to start, but every 2 minutes feels like 2 hours.

Why won't babies nap on a consistent basis? They sleep every night until 7 in the morning no matter what time they went to bed. Why is it that one day they will take two two hour naps and the next day it's two half hour naps? Of course it's always the days that I want to take a nap that they take the half hour naps.

We went to the park again yesterday. This time we went to a park that had swings so the boys got to try out the swings. They went down the slide again and played in the sand. Andy loves to play with the sand and feel it in his hands. He sat there for 15 minutes running his hands through it and letting it run through his hands. Matt wasn't as impressed with the sand this time. He just had this look like "yeah I've seen this before." They are so cute and so different. I can totally see their individual personalities already. With my experience in daycare I knew they would be developing their personalities already, but they are so different I can't believe they both came from Corey and I. Matt (who looks the most like Corey) totally has his laid back personality. Andy (who looks like me) has my I gotta go and always need attention personality. I guess both of our mothers got what they wished for when we were little when they said "I hope someday you have a child just like you." I guess you get what you wish for (maybe just not at the time you want it).

Moving

Hello! What a beautiful day it is here today. The boys are getting moving (finally). They still aren't actually really truly crawling on hands and knees, but Andy is making circles around the living room. Andy pushes himself backwards and gets stuck under the furniture. Matt just rolls everywhere or laying on his back scoots around. They are both pulling themselves up on Corey and I. They haven't figured out how to pull up on the furniture yet (thank goodness), but they can hold on and even cruise a little if you stand them up on a piece of furniture. The other thing the boys love doing is picking on the kitty. Andy keeps trying to pull himself up on the kitty when she's laying by him. This of course doesn't work since the kitty is just a close to the ground as Andy is. So he pulls himself up to a squat and then ends up flopping over on top of Pumpkin (our kitty). Andy pulls on her tail a lot (thankfully she doesn't have any feeling in here tail). Matt just pulls on her fur a little, but is much more gentle than Andy. I love having twins!!! They are soooooo cute together and teaching each other bad habits already.

Breastmilk supply

I have found an amazing easy fix to breastmilk supply issues...oatmeal. Just eat one bowl a day or a few cookies and some how it increases your supply. It's not a huge increase, but there is a difference. Everyday I'm amazed that I can breast feed twins. I'm so glad I gave it a try. I think that anyone can be successful at breastfeeding if you give it a try. Having supportive family and friends around is a great help too. I do sometime feel a little tied down, like I can't get away for more than 2 or 3 hours at a time. I do have frozen milk that I could use, but the boys haven't really had any bottles ever so they don't like to drink from a bottle. I'm not sure how I would have done at nursing/pumping if I wasn't able to be with the boys all the time, but that's part of why I worked in daycare with them and then also why I started staying home. I know that you can be successful at breastfeeding even if you are away from your child for 8 hours a day, but I've never experienced that. My biggest piece of advice for new moms is stick with it. It will most likely be hard in the beginning, but you can get through it and it will get better.

Getting outside!!

FINALLY!!! We got to go outside today and it was wonderful. We went to the park today with a mom and kids play group. It was the first time I met them and it was fun. There are several kids around the boys' age but all of them have older siblings. It will be cool for the boys to grow up always knowing these same kids. We had a ton of fun. I took the boys down the slide a couple of times and then we sat and played in the sand. Amazingly enough neither of them tried to eat the sand. Andy did try to eat the grass when they were sitting in the grass. After they played in the sand for a little while I took their shoes and socks off to let them feel the sand on their feet. Anyway, it was a great day!!! I am so glad that spring is finally here. I hope that it stays that way, but I'm sure we will get one more snow storm which sucks. Oh well, I'll enjoy it for now.

I'm back!

Hello all! I'm back finally. I'm sorry I haven't been writing lately. I've been so busy for the last month. I don't even really know what it is that I have been doing. Anyway, I am starting a new thing today. I found this website that helps you track your weight loss. I've been trying to lose weight for a while now and haven't gotten anywhere, so I thought making it public like this might help. I have my 10 year high school reunion this summer which I don't really care about, but at the same time I do. The thing that has really brought me to this conclusion is the fact that our life insurance company would not give me as much coverage as I wanted based on my weight. So, before the re-enrollment period comes around again in August I have to take off some weight. Anyway, that's my new thing for today. I know this really has nothing to do with the boys, but in a way it does because if I don't lose weight I won't be able to do as much with them. Tomorrow I will get back to talking to the boys.